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  OK, so I am currently feeling so tired with social media. I decided to archive a lot of my posts today especially those who show people's faces including myself. I am feeling uncomfortable with some news that I read about how these social medias own whatever images we posted into their platform (which yes of course that's the logic, right?) I have started to reduce the frequency of showing my kids' pictures. A is now old enough to have his own social media account too so I do want to respect his privacy. I archived many posts back when they were younger too. I feel that it is a bit safer? I guess. Eventhough of course now the giant corporates may own all of them and can use it for their own purposes. But most importantly, I am more careful now. I understand that blog is probably a form of social media platform too. But here I write. Yes. I am using my brain way better than scrolling in social media. So I am planning to use this blog more often than before. I hope I can wr...
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Ending 2021

What a year. Honestly I couldn't really remember what I did in 2021. 2021 flew so fast and all I can remember was me in front of my computer. I don't know how productive I was. I really don't know how I felt throughout the year. And suddenly it is the end of the year already. Wow. I want to post more in 2022 though. I used to love reading and writing but these past five years, especially after I started my PhD, I almost never checked in to this blog again. Maybe I should.  But for now, Happy New Year 2022!  We always wish for the best for the new year. 2022, surprise me :)
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Mentally exhausted

 Aaaww! I can't believe it has been years since I blogged. I have once thought of changing my blog website but when I visited my old blog (which is this one!), I felt so happy to see my old memories and I felt I should continue blogging in the same space. I am trying to regularly do journaling, but this morning I couldn't find my journal so I thought I should share here.  How do I feel today? To be honest, I feel so tired mentally. I feel numb, like a robot. I am not motivated with my dissertation work. I am still working, but I don't feel any sparks. Also I got very anxious almost on a daily basis. My anxiety comes to things like "how long can we live and stay in Hawaii?", "when will I graduate?", "if we go home, can B get a good therapy there?", "where will B go to school?" , "I'm not ready to leave Hawaii, I love Hawaii" but then I also got other anxieties such as "but if we live in Hawaii, we don't have enou...
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Fall 2018

So.. here I am. In my second year of study as a PhD student. In my fourth semester of trying to understand what I really want to do for my study. Time flies so fast though. I can't stop remembering the first semester when I arrived in Hawaii. I hardly know anything. But I also like that I dont have to think about a lot of thing such as topic of my proposal etc. I only need to take classes. I was still in Hawaii by myself. So I can be all out since I only took care of myself. Now with my family with me it is pretty handful, but I am very blessed to have them near me because I dont think I could go through all the turmoil without their presence. So here I am, in this 4th semester, ready to write my proposal which somehow very difficult to start. Three chapters to write is not easy. I still don't have ideas to what to write about, but as they say, you just need to stop worrying and start writing. Also, I had much fun this weekend. Yesterday, after a long while, I finally...
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GLAD

I am so glad that I have finally pass both the IELTS and GRE test :) It was personally a struggle for me especially GRE because the materials are much more complicated than the IELTS. I also realized that age does matters. Now that I am older, I found myself trying to remembering verbs a lot more harder than I was in my 20s. But I guess practice makes perfect, or at least better. I literally practiced day and night using various type of means such as books, internet, e-book, newsletter and many more. I was absolutely nervous when I did mya test because if I failed I need to take another one and the deadline to start the new term is approaching really fast. I also cannot afford to pay for another one since the test fee is very expensive. I guess some tips that I can share from taking both GRE and IELTS  are: 1. Focus on your weakness but still do some practice on all materials. You will never know what you will be facing during the test so you have to be familiar with all th...
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More vocabulary exercise

Tuesday, September 27, 2016 Shindig, hegemon, bearing, prevailing, enraptured, delicacy, funk, frenzy, curmudgeon, paraphernalia No wonder, Mr. Ted, our history teacher was called “the killer shark”. Just by a glance you can easily recognize him as a curmudgeon. Whenever he enters the class bearing his paraphernalia, the atmosphere suddenly turned into a frenzy instead of delicacy moment. This is very contrast to the moment where the school held a jazz shindig where the funk music session was on. At that time, Mr. Ted looked so relaxed and enraptured by the songs. Such a paradox with his hegemon attitude, unfortunately.  
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