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Hal terberat bagi saya akhir-akhir ini adalah ketika saya begitu menikmati akhir pekan dengan anak-anak dan menyadari besok saya harus kembali bekerja. I can't help it. A 15-minutes-distance office is not good enough. I don't care if people tell me " rumput tetangga selalu lebih hijau" I just want to be near my little boys. What should I do? :(

biasanya di awal sebelum saya blogging, saya suka terpikir gambar atau foto apa yang bisa saya pampang di sini supaya yang baca tidak bosan (geer, kaya ada yang bakal baca aja) :D tapi lama-lama setelah dipikir, ini salah satu alasan saya jadi batal blogging. Kesibukan mikirin foto, ide menulisnya keburu hilang. so now I'll start to write whatever I want to write without thinking too much. (iya nih, saya pemikir berat :-P) it's about motherhood. di umur-umur saya yang sekarang ini adalah masa-masanya menjadi mahmud alias mamah muda. Muda karena, tanpa bermaksud sombong, we already have a child or even children (like me!) when our age is still below 30 :)   if you look at my timeline in Twitter  you can see there are so many motherhood stuff. Most of my friends tweeted about their children and sometimes even twit pic them..  including me! :D Mulai dari baru lahir, masa-masa menyusui, masa-masa galau harus balik kerja, pertama kali vaksin, pertama kali kena pilek, s...

I just realize Blogpost now has a new outlook for its posting system :) *ga jadi ngeblog deh.. malah terkagum-kagum hehehe*

cuti saya kali ini didedikasikan untuk anak-anak. Alhamdulillah akhirnya proses mengurus paspor Bagas selesai juga. Pelayanan permohonan paspor dengan cara online harus saya akui, walau masih banyak keterbatasan, sudah mempermudah dan mempercepat proses pengurusannya. Paling tidak, saya hanya perlu ambil cuti 1 hari saja untuk mengurus semuanya. Walau bapak petugas bagian foto saya temukan sedang main game otello dulu (gubrak banget deh!) tapiiii secara keseluruhan sudah lebih OK pelayanannya apalagi karena Bagas masih bayi jadi diprioritaskan untuk selesai cepat (fyuuuh). Lega dan senang karena saya mengurus semuanya seorang diri. Bukannya saya tidak mampu tapii...well, I'm a spoiled brat :-P Dimanja oleh bapak saya dan ketika menikah mendapatkan suami seperti @omjambul yang super santai dan tidak pernah meminta apa-apa dari istrinya membuat saya menjadi wanita (muda) yang manja dan pemalas...hahaha! Biasanya saya selalu minta @omjambul cuti untuk menemani saya..entah kenapa saya ...

found it from Facebook: Batik Neng Sari. Meleleh ga sih liatnya? :)

that all my posts are about my children. and if not about my children, then it's about motherhood. and if not about motherhood, then it's about my sometimes sh*tty work :-P then if it's not about work, it's about my children again. haha! I hope you're not bored reading my blog. But I believe you won't. *narsis tingkat tinggi*

adalah ketika pulang kantor, #Razki dan #Bagas berebut perhatian :)

This is not Razki's first time to get his hair cut. Inherited his father's thick hair, we already started to cut Razki's hair since he was 40 days old. During the first year, Razki always cried when we brought him to the kids barber shop. But over time, he tried his best (oh! this makes me want to cry) not to cry although sometimes his eyes sudah "berkaca-kaca". And then finally one day when he was two years old, he managed not to cry at all when the barber man (alias tukang cukur. hey, what do you call it in English?) covered his body with cloth and started to cut his hair. Wow, the cutting process was so fast, I can hardly believe it hehehe :) Now my son is metamorphosing from a ganteng boy to a very ganteng boy gitu loh :D yes, I'm a proud mum!

#1. Rumah Cokelat by Sitta Karina Just like the title, Rumah Cokelat brought a warmth ambience of a new little family and their ups and downs life. Sitta Karina wrote in a light yet meaningful (and of course to me, mengharukan!) words of how difficult it is for a working mother to be away from her son, how her heart broke when her son chose to be with his nanny instead of her own mum, and how she finally overcome her own ego. The characters Sitta wrote are so close to reality you almost feel like it was you who she wrote about :) #2. Indonesian Idle by Okke "Sepatumerah " I knew the name Okke (SepatuMerah) from blogging. She is one of the "pioneer bloggers" in Indonesia along with Ninit Yunita, Alaya Setya, etc (that's my guess ;)) Okke stories about a young woman who find one day she was not as luck as she is in terms of finding work :D and at the same time she learned about living a life in Jakarta the hard way. The book is a pleasure to read, light yet funn...

#Razki helped me carrying my lunch bag :)

what a happy long weekend. we (my three men and I) spent the first day going around Bogor with Buti and Tari. #Razki enjoyed eating J-Cool very much. the last two days spent at our home in #Rumba, doing nothing :) peaceful and quiet. @omjambul and I talked a lot. Something that we rarely do on a daily basis. Sometimes because we're simply too tired or the kids were demanding (which is reasonable after a long hours apart from us). i hope i can experience the same feeling again. sehat terus ya @omjambul :)

This is just the way life is. My life for the past several weeks are like a rabbit in a magician hat. I can't see anything except my work. Memang agak lebay ya, tapi that's the way I feel. Hidup saya siang malam hanya berputar di analisa data for a book chapter. Rasanya seperti dibanting bolak balik, harus bisa ini, harus bisa itu, harus cepet ngerti, harus cepet bikinnya, harus bener angkanya dll. Pokoknya zero error. I often feel like I've been push to the limit. Sometimes, well, most of the time, rasanya pengen "terjun" aja saking frustrasinya. Gimana ngga. I almost had no sleep. Bisa hanya 1 atau 2 jam tidur. Bagas seperti normalnya bayi usia 5 bulan masih rutin minta susu 2 jam atau bahkan sejam sekali. I'm not complaining about my son, it's a natural thing to do and I love nursing him, tapi... yes, I'm questioning my work. Sering terbersit dalam hati, do I really have to work? Do I really need the money? Is this all worthed? Pulang terlambat, sam...