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21.12.12. It is a unique date and a special one. Try add them all up. 21.12.12 = 3.3.3 = 3. And as of this date I become 30. I don't like exposure so I was thankful to know that my boss approved my leave. That way I don't have to go to the office and meet people. Don't get it wrong. I like the warm greetings and hugs and kisses. But not overdose. And this year somehow I feel like spending my special day of the year with my kids at home. Speaking of 30 and take a look back for a while, I must say I am truly blessed with my life. The achievement I made before being 30 years old, in terms of career and family, I really couldn't thank Allah less. Before 30 Allah gave me: My master degree. A well-paid (more than one digit) salary, closely located with home, flexibility of working hours and freedom in wearing casual outfit. My current job may be included as one of the dream job a mum could want. Sure there are times when I was at my lowest point, but it resolved. ...

5 Cara membatasi penggunaan gadget pada anak

@omjambul sent me this link this morning and, as predicted, it successfully made me shed into tears. Very inspiring :)

Happy birthday Arazki. You are 3 years old now. Sudah mulai bertanya "kenapa?" , sudah mulai pandai merangkai kata-kata sampai Ibu terkadang kewalahan. Sudah tahu apa yg disuka dan yg tidak. You are not a baby anymore but to me you will always be my sweet littlr baby. May u be a good gentleman ya sayang.. kiss and (manly) hug, Ibu.

It's my husband's birthday today. No cake, no candles, no gifts, just a hug and pray... Happy birthday Mas. Mudah-mudahan yg diinginkan diijabah oleh Allah SWT. Je t'aime vous

Snuggling in bed with my two boys and husband. The joy of doing nothing :)

Pada dasarnya ekeu adalah orang yang senang jahit kebaya. Dulu sukanya bikin kebaya atasan aja, tapi dua tahun terakhir ini setiap kali saya dikirim seragam panitia, saya lebih suka buat kebaya dalam bentuk dress alias one piece. Alasannya? Lebih ga ribet kalau jalan (iya, saya orangnya ga mau ribet, jalan pake kain ketat dan langkahnya cuma bisa seincrit alias kecil2 bikin males banget) dan selain itu juga karena penampilannya lebih anggun. oya, dan ga ribet bukanya lagi hahahaha. so waktu lagi asik browsing FB i found this gorgeous dress. sebenarnya ini busana pengantin ya kalau lihat dari warnanya tapi bisa jadi ide untuk seragam panitia juga hihihi. so pertanyaannya sekarang adalah: ada yang mau ngasih gw seragam ga? hehehehe :)) Photo source: FB

for those movie freaks :) more information available here:  http://www.europeonscreen.org/

Source: The Economist.

it means hugs and kisses . have a lovely weekend! :)

Hallo. It has been a long while since I updated my blog. It crosses my mind everyday though, to write something here, but I have to say I always fail to meet my own expectation :) Either because I choose to go directly to sleep or play in my Ipad instead hehehe.. Life has been good so far, some minor illness but not worth mentioning. I guess those are just tests for me to be stronger. I can't say much now as I need to take my kids to bath. I am a stay at home mum today :) Cheerio!

do you know that gender is actuall different than sex ? :)

pengen lanjut sekolah. pengen tuker tambah mobil. pengen beli ORI. pengen jualan online. pengen mulai mikirin karir lagi pelan-pelan. geesh... i have so many want-to-do list, scary! kaya lagu Doraemon, aku ingin begini aku ingin begitu :)) tapi saya sadar i cant win them all at the same time. bagi saya sekarang, saya ingin bisa sehat dan punya keluarga yang harmonis. itu udah lebih dari cukup.

sitting in front of my computer in our bedroom. instead of setting up a TV, we decided to have a desk to put our books, wallets, and laptops. Now it looks like an imitation of an office space :D this helps me a lot because sometimes i need to answers emails and during working hours my time has been absorbed for various kind of tasks and emails are keep coming in. so with this mini office space, I can sit at least for half an hour, reading emails, open facebook and (hopefully) post more stories in my blog while my boys are fast asleep. good night and hope tomorrow we will have a good day! :)

Blame my crazy-super-duper colleagues, because of them, I am now addicted with Maroon 5 songs. Adam Levine almost captured my heart if @omjambul didn't come to rescue me on time. Hahaha! *lebay maksimal* This is one of the many songs of Maroon 5 that I like.

1 September 2012. I love you all, my three men :)

Tiba-tiba kepikiran ingin melanjutkan sekolah lagi. And now I dont want to think whether I am capable or not. I just realized it is a waste of time. Foolish me.I guess I would just do it, write something, do more reading, and send the application. Gagal ga masalah, it is better than doing nothing at all. Wish me luck ya...

Minal aidin walfa idzin.. Mohon maaf bila ada yg merasa disakiti lahiriah dan batiniah.. Selamat makan ketupat.. Dan mudah-mudahan kita sempat berkontemplasi sejenak Mengingat dan mensyukuri nikmat Allah sekecil apapun.. Dan betapa kecilnya kita.. Iya, saya :) Semoga kita bisa bertemu Ramadhan berikutnya ya. Lebaran. The irreplaceable moment of the year.

Waktu baca novel Test Pack karangan @istribawel beberapa kali saya menitikkan air mata. Karena cerita tentang sepasang suami istri muda yang berjuang bertahun-tahun untuk memperoleh anak ini terasa begitu nyata. Diceritakan dengan gaya bahasa yang down to earth tapi dalam maknanya, dengan kombinasi yang pas antara bahasa Indonesia, Sunda dan Inggris, Ninit Yunita berhasil menyampaikan pesan bahwa pernikahan itu tidak "sekedar" untuk memiliki keturunan. "Saya cinta kamu walaupun kamu infertil" Bahwa sebenarnya cinta sejati itu adalah ketika kita bisa menerima dan mencintai ketidaksempurnaan pasangan kita. Cant wait to watch the movie!

I found this website from Femina magazine. In the magazine it mentioned that Priscilla, Mark Zuckerberg's wife ordered a wedding gown from a store called The Little White Dress. I am not sure if this is the correct website, but I love each and every wedding gowns that were displayed in the website. I instantly have an idea to adapt the design and apply it for a kebaya moslemah dress. It should be simple but yet elegant, just like this one here.

I miss u so much! Things are going crazy (as usual) but fun at the same time :) As a mother, in the past few months I feel like I've been trained to be a strong mum. From illness to nanny-less, from relative problems to odd working hours. And somehow, so far, I survived. I am still seating in the roller coaster :) As a worker, the story is a bit long. But bottom line, I learned a lot the skill of bargaining, negotiating, and being strategic. It was fun, and it is still is. Saling mendoakan ya. Have a good weekend peeps! @addesita

I am in love with this song. The lyrics are just so deep. Heartbeats fast  Colors and promises  How to be brave  How can I love when I'm afraid to fall  But watching you stand alone  All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow  One step closer  I have died everyday waiting for you  Darling don't be afraid I have loved you  For a thousand years  I love you for a thousand more  Time stands still  Beauty in all she is  I will be brave  I will not let anything take away  What's standing in front of me  Every breath  Every hour has come to this  One step closer  [ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/c/christina+perri/a+thousand+years_20986324.html ]   I have died everyday waiting for you  Darling don't be afraid I have loved you  For a thousand years  I love you for a thousand more  And all along I believed I would find you  Time has brought your heart to me ...

I am now reading Partikel by Dee , pen name of the well-known female author, Dewi Lestari. I'm not a true follower of Dee to be honest. Some of her books such as Filosofi Kopi  and Rectoverso are not really my cup of tea (I only read the first story in Filkop). But some of her books I heart a lot, such as Perahu Kertas and Madre. However, this 4th sequel of Supernova tickles my curiosity. So far the story has successfully made me undistracted :) It makes me want to collect the complete set of Supernova (I only read the second part which is Akar). Nevertheless, I believe that Dee is a gifted writer. Her talent in writing added with her curiosity to learn anything that caught her interest and her intelligence perfectionism makes each sentence in Partikel is worth the read. I hope I will get the same impression until I finish the book :)

I have been faraway behind in blogging :) My life so far has been quite good. A bit of hiccups in work life but somehow it will be sorted out soon. Family life has never been better. Bagas is now 7 months, still breastfeeding and healthy. Razki excels his vocabulary and love Thomas (and friends which are a lot!) more and more. @omjambul is doing fine as well. I love the warmth of my family, staying together in my parents home has never been a failure decision. Will update more soon. Bye!

my lovely family at Dinda's wedding, June 3rd, 2012

I've promised myself not to be on travel for at least a year after I gave birth to Bagas. But tomorrow I'll be traveling again, after six months of (lovely) hibernation. It's a short and near trip though. And I am bringing the whole boys with me, yes, with their dad too :) Happy semi-holiday!

Just receive a happy news in my Twitter! The Urban Mama mentioned saya kalau artikel saya tentang pesta kebun Razki dimuat di website The Urban Mama, yaaay! :D Artikel sederhana yang bercerita tentang persiapan pesta ulang tahun Razki yang kedua, hihihi. But it made my day :) Jadi semangat untuk menulis lagi, kira-kira nulis apalagi ya? :) Buat yang mau baca (muahaha geeeer!) silakan berkunjung kesini , enjoy!

Hal terberat bagi saya akhir-akhir ini adalah ketika saya begitu menikmati akhir pekan dengan anak-anak dan menyadari besok saya harus kembali bekerja. I can't help it. A 15-minutes-distance office is not good enough. I don't care if people tell me " rumput tetangga selalu lebih hijau" I just want to be near my little boys. What should I do? :(

biasanya di awal sebelum saya blogging, saya suka terpikir gambar atau foto apa yang bisa saya pampang di sini supaya yang baca tidak bosan (geer, kaya ada yang bakal baca aja) :D tapi lama-lama setelah dipikir, ini salah satu alasan saya jadi batal blogging. Kesibukan mikirin foto, ide menulisnya keburu hilang. so now I'll start to write whatever I want to write without thinking too much. (iya nih, saya pemikir berat :-P) it's about motherhood. di umur-umur saya yang sekarang ini adalah masa-masanya menjadi mahmud alias mamah muda. Muda karena, tanpa bermaksud sombong, we already have a child or even children (like me!) when our age is still below 30 :)   if you look at my timeline in Twitter  you can see there are so many motherhood stuff. Most of my friends tweeted about their children and sometimes even twit pic them..  including me! :D Mulai dari baru lahir, masa-masa menyusui, masa-masa galau harus balik kerja, pertama kali vaksin, pertama kali kena pilek, s...

I just realize Blogpost now has a new outlook for its posting system :) *ga jadi ngeblog deh.. malah terkagum-kagum hehehe*

cuti saya kali ini didedikasikan untuk anak-anak. Alhamdulillah akhirnya proses mengurus paspor Bagas selesai juga. Pelayanan permohonan paspor dengan cara online harus saya akui, walau masih banyak keterbatasan, sudah mempermudah dan mempercepat proses pengurusannya. Paling tidak, saya hanya perlu ambil cuti 1 hari saja untuk mengurus semuanya. Walau bapak petugas bagian foto saya temukan sedang main game otello dulu (gubrak banget deh!) tapiiii secara keseluruhan sudah lebih OK pelayanannya apalagi karena Bagas masih bayi jadi diprioritaskan untuk selesai cepat (fyuuuh). Lega dan senang karena saya mengurus semuanya seorang diri. Bukannya saya tidak mampu tapii...well, I'm a spoiled brat :-P Dimanja oleh bapak saya dan ketika menikah mendapatkan suami seperti @omjambul yang super santai dan tidak pernah meminta apa-apa dari istrinya membuat saya menjadi wanita (muda) yang manja dan pemalas...hahaha! Biasanya saya selalu minta @omjambul cuti untuk menemani saya..entah kenapa saya ...

found it from Facebook: Batik Neng Sari. Meleleh ga sih liatnya? :)

that all my posts are about my children. and if not about my children, then it's about motherhood. and if not about motherhood, then it's about my sometimes sh*tty work :-P then if it's not about work, it's about my children again. haha! I hope you're not bored reading my blog. But I believe you won't. *narsis tingkat tinggi*

adalah ketika pulang kantor, #Razki dan #Bagas berebut perhatian :)

This is not Razki's first time to get his hair cut. Inherited his father's thick hair, we already started to cut Razki's hair since he was 40 days old. During the first year, Razki always cried when we brought him to the kids barber shop. But over time, he tried his best (oh! this makes me want to cry) not to cry although sometimes his eyes sudah "berkaca-kaca". And then finally one day when he was two years old, he managed not to cry at all when the barber man (alias tukang cukur. hey, what do you call it in English?) covered his body with cloth and started to cut his hair. Wow, the cutting process was so fast, I can hardly believe it hehehe :) Now my son is metamorphosing from a ganteng boy to a very ganteng boy gitu loh :D yes, I'm a proud mum!

#1. Rumah Cokelat by Sitta Karina Just like the title, Rumah Cokelat brought a warmth ambience of a new little family and their ups and downs life. Sitta Karina wrote in a light yet meaningful (and of course to me, mengharukan!) words of how difficult it is for a working mother to be away from her son, how her heart broke when her son chose to be with his nanny instead of her own mum, and how she finally overcome her own ego. The characters Sitta wrote are so close to reality you almost feel like it was you who she wrote about :) #2. Indonesian Idle by Okke "Sepatumerah " I knew the name Okke (SepatuMerah) from blogging. She is one of the "pioneer bloggers" in Indonesia along with Ninit Yunita, Alaya Setya, etc (that's my guess ;)) Okke stories about a young woman who find one day she was not as luck as she is in terms of finding work :D and at the same time she learned about living a life in Jakarta the hard way. The book is a pleasure to read, light yet funn...

#Razki helped me carrying my lunch bag :)

what a happy long weekend. we (my three men and I) spent the first day going around Bogor with Buti and Tari. #Razki enjoyed eating J-Cool very much. the last two days spent at our home in #Rumba, doing nothing :) peaceful and quiet. @omjambul and I talked a lot. Something that we rarely do on a daily basis. Sometimes because we're simply too tired or the kids were demanding (which is reasonable after a long hours apart from us). i hope i can experience the same feeling again. sehat terus ya @omjambul :)

This is just the way life is. My life for the past several weeks are like a rabbit in a magician hat. I can't see anything except my work. Memang agak lebay ya, tapi that's the way I feel. Hidup saya siang malam hanya berputar di analisa data for a book chapter. Rasanya seperti dibanting bolak balik, harus bisa ini, harus bisa itu, harus cepet ngerti, harus cepet bikinnya, harus bener angkanya dll. Pokoknya zero error. I often feel like I've been push to the limit. Sometimes, well, most of the time, rasanya pengen "terjun" aja saking frustrasinya. Gimana ngga. I almost had no sleep. Bisa hanya 1 atau 2 jam tidur. Bagas seperti normalnya bayi usia 5 bulan masih rutin minta susu 2 jam atau bahkan sejam sekali. I'm not complaining about my son, it's a natural thing to do and I love nursing him, tapi... yes, I'm questioning my work. Sering terbersit dalam hati, do I really have to work? Do I really need the money? Is this all worthed? Pulang terlambat, sam...

in the beginning of this year, i actually made a promise to myself to at least write something in my blog once a week. Well, it is not even mid-year and I can't meet my own expectation :D I was too lazy to login into my blog account so what I usually do is just type my URL and read my last post again and again, and then jump to my friend's blogs. I actually open up my computer very often due to the workload (ugh!) I often stay awake until 1 AM or even more. Guess that's the reason behind my laziness. I'm too exhausted. Luckily this doesn't affect (yet) the milk supply for Bagas. I still have one freezer of expressed milk bottles for him. Hopefully, fingers crossed, I can still produce ASI at least until Bagas is one year. Happy weekend! :)

i'm feeling clueless right now. clueless in terms of aspiring myself for creating new things for my life. the whole batik selling is in a stall right now. i'm still thinking what to do to improve the marketing process. trouble is.. i don't have time :( - to be continued -

Razki. 1 tahun.

foto diambil dari postingan Alaya. It's been a while since I do blog surfing . Dulu waktu belum punya anak atau waktu Razki sudah lewat 1 tahun, hobi saya adalah mengintip blog-blog orang :-D Salah satu blog favorit saya adalah blog milik Alaya Setya . Dengan heading sederhananya Pas Magnifique (atau nothing special jika diterjemahkan), blog Alaya justru membawa banyak hal spesial yang merenyahkan hari-hari saya. Pengarang Travelers' Tale ini mempunyai blog yang sangat menarik dan inspiratif. Menarik karena tampilannya selalu eye-catching dan khas Alaya. Dengan tutur kata yang konsisten menggunakan bahasa Inggris, cerita yang tidak terlalu panjang dan membosankan, serta foto-foto hasil jepretannya sendiri yang indah dan memperhatikan detail.. Inspiratif karena Alaya ini, menurut feeling saya, termasuk orang yang bekerja di dalam bidang kreatif. Dia selalu berhasil menemukan website yang isinya barang-barang hasil ide kreatif, seperti tas burung hantu, wallpaper sticker , etc. ...

phew... what a week. belum 1 minggu kembali bekerja, I have been working like a horse! Sabtu minggu pun ikut berkontribusi menjadi hari kerja buat diri saya kemarin. Ini semua karena proyek yang saya ikuti sedang mengadakan pertemuan tahunan di Barcelona, Spanyol. By the way, I'm supposed to be there. Ya, saya hampir ikut ke Barcelona tapi di akhir memutuskan untuk tidak jadi due to various reasons, and the top reason is my kids especially the little one, Bagas . Sedikit cerita tentang Bagas. He is 3 months old now. Big and healthy and gragas! Gragas dalam arti minumnya rakus! Alhamdulillah sampai sekarang saya masih bisa memberikan ASI untuk Bagas tanpa tambahan asupan lainnya. Bagi saya, ini rejeki tak terhingga :) Saya tidak anti asupan lain, bagi saya yang penting anak sehat, tapi jika memungkinkan tentu ASI harus diusahakan. Kembali ke pekerjaan, karena Bagas lah saya memutuskan tidak ikut. Bagi saya, ini bukan pengorbanan, bukan pula kewajiban, tapi keinginan. Saya ingin de...

3 years. 2 kids. 1 love. Happy anniversary @omjambul.. :)

a gift from my boss. I saw this book when my boss showed me some photos in his house in the US. From all the books scattered in the boxes (he and his family were going to sell the house) this book is so eye catching I just ask him if he still keep it and is it OK for me to have it if he is going to give all the stuff in the house away. Too bad he said that the book was already given to a public library in their neighborhood. So I didn't expect anything. Suddenly, a week ago he sent me an email and asked my home address. It turned out that he ordered this book for me :') Thanks a lot William, I promise I'll read this book out loud, even when it comes to the irritating part of reading :)

My father sent me this poem from W.S. Rendra. I thought I put it here as a reminder :) R‎enungan yang Indah Seringkali aku berkata, Ketika semua orang memuji milik-ku Bahwa sesungguhnya ini hanyalah "TITIPAN" Bahwa mobilku hanyalah titipan-Nya Bahwa rumahku hanyalah titipan-Nya Bahwa hartaku hanyalah titipan-Nya Bahwa putraku hanyalah titipan-Nya Tetapi, mengapa aku tak pernah bertanya: Mengapa Dia menitipkan padaku ??? Untuk apa Dia menitipkan ini padaku ??? Dan kalau bukan milikku, apa yang harus kulakukan untuk milik-Nya itu ??? Adakah aku memiliki hak atas sesuatu yang bukan milikku ? Mengapa hatiku justru terasa berat, ketika titipan itu diminta kembali oleh-Nya ? Ketika diminta kembali, kusebut itu sebagai musibah, Kusebut itu sebagai ujian, kusebut itu sebagai petaka, Kusebut itu sebagai panggilan apa saja untuk melukiskan kalau itu adalah derita. Ketika aku berdoa, kuminta titipan yang cocok dengan hawa nafsuku Aku ingin lebih banyak harta, ingin lebih banyak mobil, ...

Hi All! Happy New Year 2012! Tidak terasa ya abad ke-21 ini sudah memasuki tahun yang ke-12. Padahal dulu rasanya mendengar kata tahun “2000” sudah terdengar futuristik ;-) Semoga di tahun ini harapan dan asa kita diberkahi Allah SWT J Anyway, ada yang buat resolusi 2012? I’ve tweeted about this once and I answer myself that I never make one. True, saya termasuk orang yang abal-abal dalam hal bikin resolusi. Mengingat diri saya yang ga bisa diatur-atur ini, making myself to do a resolution is like setting up targets and I don’t like target. I’d rather say it as a wish list.. jadi rasanya tidak ada paksaan untuk mencapainya di 2012 ini. J Yup that’s my motto: have dreams but let it flow. My wishlist? Well, I prefer not to open it up here. Yang pasti saya berharap di 2012 ini saya dan keluarga kecil maupun besar, teman-teman saya, diberkahi nikmat sehat. I do believe nikmat sehat adalah nikmat yang paling nikmat hehehe… but usually we forget it. Kalau mimpi jangan tan...